Feeling inadequate
I recently deleted my accounts on Bluesky and Mastodon. Don't worry, this isn't a post about how social media is all bad. Nor is it about some kind of personal rebirth after a digital detox.
I just want to explain what prompted this decision.
The reason was a persistent feeling of inadequacy. I felt like I wasn't keeping up, constantly falling behind on...
- ...reading interesting blog posts.
- ...congratulating people on their birthdays.
- ...helping others with their blog themes.
- ...wishing those who were sick a speedy recovery.
- ...commenting on beautiful photos.
I wanted to do all of these things.
But no matter how hard I tried, I could never catch up. Of course, anyone would realize that. Still, it wasn't stress or FOMO I felt; it was inadequacy.
I understand, logically, that it's impossible to do everything. I also realize that no one expects me to. But logical reasoning doesn't change how I feel.
I'd be lying if I said I felt a huge sense of relief after deleting the accounts. I don't, but I still believe it was the right decision—at least for now.
Will I return? Maybe, maybe not. Only time will tell.
I'm doing what feels right for me right now.
And that's enough.