Blogging doubts
If you’ve never had doubts about blogging, you’ve probably never blogged. We all have them now and then — doubts, hesitations, fears.
It’s natural. It’s part of being creative. It’s part of being human.
I started my first blog over 20 years ago, so I’ve had my fair share of doubts... and still do. The one I’m facing right now might actually be the strongest I’ve ever had.
It’s not about whether I should blog or not. Not blogging isn’t an option. I’ll keep doing it in one form or another.
It’s about language. I doubt my ability to blog in English. Even though I enjoy it, it’s a bit of a struggle — and not the “positive creative struggle” that fuels the process, but the kind that slowly drains it.
I doubt my ability to express myself the way I really feel. When I write in Swedish, it just flows. I can shape my thoughts naturally, paint with words, use figures of speech that feel alive and true.
In English, that feels harder.
The reason I’m doing it at all is simple: it opens up more possibilities. When you write in Swedish, you’re a bit boxed in — fewer platforms, smaller networks, fewer of those fun and geeky things that make the web what it is. And being a bit of a tech junkie, those things do matter to me.
I’ve promised myself to stick with it until the end of the month before deciding whether to keep going in English or switch back. Right now, though, I’m honestly not sure.
Not the most cheerful “have a nice weekend” post, I know — but that’s life. Sometimes we doubt ourselves.